[In a way, Jean's actions are helping, because they're reminding him that whatever happened, it's over now. It's over now and he's with a friend. He's safe. However, using virtually that same logic, they're just making Marco feel worse. He shouldn't be behaving himself like this in front of Jean, who's already had more than enough reason to worry. Jean, who might end up thinking he's just a weakling for breaking down like this.
His eyes scrunch shut and he tries to focus solely on drawing air into his lungs. To ignore the clenching feeling in his stomach that makes him worry he might end up retching again, and instead concentrate on slowing his breathing to a normal pace. He wonders vaguely what happened to the composure he'd still had while he was walking home.
He's being ridiculous and he needs to calm himself the fuck down.]
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His eyes scrunch shut and he tries to focus solely on drawing air into his lungs. To ignore the clenching feeling in his stomach that makes him worry he might end up retching again, and instead concentrate on slowing his breathing to a normal pace. He wonders vaguely what happened to the composure he'd still had while he was walking home.
He's being ridiculous and he needs to calm himself the fuck down.]